I have had a few emotional ups and downs over girlfriends. I did not have a lot of dating experience and was caught off guard by how to handle infatuation in my high school and college years. I often became an emotional wreck as I struggled to communicate how I felt and discern how to build a healthy relationship with girls. But my dog still loved me unconditionally.
I stumbled along with little assistance in my social/dating life, but it started to come together when I got interested in Barbara in grad school. We were friends as fellow grad students and I was interested in seeing where our relationship could go, but she was not at the time. Initially I was crushed, anxious, and even a little depressed. I mistakenly began to worry about what might never be, and took my eyes off of trusting the Lord for patience and guidance.
My dating frustrations were mounting as I tried to reconcile my growing love for Barbara against her reticence to deepen our relationship. Full disclosure: she had told me she was busy in school and dating another guy back home. I began attending church regularly as a grad student and was being exposed to some basic Christian habits like reading Scripture. I was introduced to a man who appeared to have it much harder than my non-existent dating relationship with Barbara. This guy lost his children in dramatic ways. He lost his wealth, property, and livestock. Then he broke out in painful sores and boils all over his body. He was left with a cynical wife who suggested he should, “curse God and die.”
His seemingly close friends gathered to suggest that their friend, a man of known godly character, must certainly be receiving punishment for his sins. And since God was not apparently listening, Job felt more and more alone.
Read Job 42:1-6.
Finally, God spoke. But He did not speak up with reasons for Job’s “why me?” questions about his suffering. Instead the voice of the One True Lord of heaven and earth, the sea and the dry land, thundered as He approached Job with a bevy of questions of His own. “Where were you when I laid the earth’s foundation? Tell me if you understand?” (Job 38:4). “Who endowed the heart with wisdom or gave the mind understanding?” (verse 6). “Does the eagle soar at your command and build his nest on high?” (39:27).
Have you ever had your toes stepped on? Consider how Job must have felt under the holy, piercing gaze and questioning of the Creator? Job was silenced. The sovereignty, goodness, wisdom, power, and love of God could not be more clear and unquestionable. If he had wondered for a second, Job now realized God Himself was the Source and Answer to any and all questions, worries, fears, and concerns he may have.
I’m sure you can say with me that we have felt abandoned by God at some point. I’m also sure you join me in wondering at times if God is actually in control of our lives? This presents us with a choice: in our times of greatest struggle, doubt, and heartache, will we turn to or away from our Creator? Will we remember Job 42:5 and recall who God is and how He wants to walk with us in our pain? There is an Answer to our sob stories and He is the God of Job.
Walk wisely. Even when blinded by confusion, sorrow, and pain, look to Jesus.
Love is a verb,
©2015 by Mike Olejarz